Tightrope Walker: Three Hours Of Silence

Come up to the mountain and stay there. God said that to Moses. But what does that mean for you and me? A lot, as it happens. Like listening, obeying, waiting . . . and possibly some spiritual tightrope walking to boot.


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Sswimming in God’s murmuring deep . . . that’s the real desire. Speaking with Him soul to soul. Listening for our Redeemer’s stilled, small voice.


But I’ll be honest—there’s a cost. A wrestling within. An off-the-grid trek. Taking you beyond your version of things to a place guaranteed to ruffle your comfy feathers.


When His voice calls you to go higher so you can go deeper, it’s not about pitching your tent in the lower mountain places. Because a change in the physical moves the spiritual . . . and a shift in the spiritual births breakthrough in the physical.

Soaking in His presence is the launching pad: separating time (marking it as holy, set apart for Him) , moving away from the world’s noisy, pushy, self-focused gravitational pull, so you can drink in God’s ways, and then drink in, drink in, and drink in even more.


Here’s a quick story of what my friends and I experienced via a surprising God-move that caused us to wrestle through the process as it took us individually to new territory in Him.





The Lord had led three of my friends and me on a joint spiritual journey a ways back—in a year filled with soaking-in-His-presence lessons that, personally speaking, catapulted my walk into new directions on many levels.


It all started with our hanging out at His well (in prayer, seeking His face, desiring to go deeper). Although we had different backgrounds and approaches, we were one in Messiah, Jesus, honoring God and His Word.


We had agreed to meet weekly via phone for prayer and subsequent God-called fasts. The actual parameters of each fast differed and intensified per the individual intercessor—but the leading of the “when” and the “how long” always fell in absolute unison.


The Lord had impressed on me that some of the things He had me fasting from would last more than an appointed number of days—they would become my way of life going forward.


Throughout that first year, we had ascended from group prayer time to a higher level of God-led intercession and onto prophetic intercession, visions or words given, hearing His voice of what to say or do (or not) as we spiritually swam in His murmuring deep.


Key lesson—obedience is birthed out of love for Him.




On May 25, 2009, we’d entered our regular time for intercession via phone. But there was nothing regular about this special God encounter.


We started with worship and praise as individually led.


But then . . . without any of us discussing it or sharing what we were experiencing at that moment, we simultaneously entered a stillness.


No words were spoken.


His Spirit had fallen over us, silenced us, and impressed on us individually not to speak.


We’d learned from prior group experiences to hear and heed. And now we were taking a mini test.


Would we obey even if we felt the need in the natural to speak or explain? I have to tell you, despite prior learning to follow His lead, my mind still had moments of wondering . . .


Am I the only one hearing this? (Nope, as it turned out.)

Did my phone drop the call? (Not in the least.)

Should I explain what He’s directing me to do? (Nope again . . . this was a faith test for each of us.)


Despite each question I wrestled with in the natural, my soul was at peace with the stillness, marveling at it and sensing things from Him through it. And He assured me, impressing on me to not be concerned about explaining things to the others but to remain silent, still, and wait.


At one point, the Lord highlighted my dog, a sweet-but-feisty English Cocker (Avigail) who was lying calmly at my feet through it all. God was affirming His lesson . . . just relax, trustfully wait, rest in Him, something like the restful devotion my dog was giving me.


Determined to not lose my balance on this undulating high wire, I wrestled against natural inclinations and waited (and waited even more), humbled by His His divine royalty, powerful presence and authority, love.


Three to three-and-a half hours later . . . He lifted the silence.




We all had remained on the phone in obedient stillness, not knowing what our intercessory partners were thinking, doing, or if they had hung up or given up.


All we had was our personal command for silence before Him. The wrestling through it all was similar, but the lessons may have been different.


Why three plus hours? Don’t know. But what I can share is two things.


We had entered a whole new level of not pitching our tent in the low places and learning (by His grace) to go farther up the mountain,
closer to Him, deeper in Him, trusting the climb, the silence,
the unexplainable, the waiting
. . .
Obediently resting in His Presence,
in His holy bridal chamber





And that SECOND takeaway?


After the Lord had broken the silence, my intercessory partners immediately asked, “What was that?” and started sharing the experiences and wrestlings they’d had during the wait.


Here’s what God had imparted to me during those hours and what I basically had shared with them:


He is King. K-I-N-G. Yes, we have access to His Holy throne room through our Messiah—but He wanted to take us to another level of His Lordship, majestic royalty . . . not move in presumption.


Similar to ancient days of earthly kingships, He wanted us to bow to His Lordship and obey . . . speaking only when He, the King, directed. And in that time of silently waiting for His nod to speak, we were to rest attentively to hear His voice within our souls.


How does that roll? Well, if you’re willing to surrender to His lead to get your spiritual ears recalibrated, there will be times when He’ll direct you to sit before Him and learn by just being in His Presence.


Other times, He’ll direct you to only worship Him—no prayer lists, not even a deeper-level intercession. But what songs would He like to hear—something honest and spontaneous from your soul, a melody from His heart to yours, or a worship song you often sing?


Or He may not want songs or soulful melodies but instead desire praise and thanksgiving. Or He could lead you into intercession where you’ll speak His Words, often praying from scripture, doing battle on behalf of others, world events, things to come according to what He is showing you.


There will be times for prayer lists/requests/concerns, but He just might want you to set all that aside, trusting that He knows the list, and instead go higher on the mountain, spending that time solely loving on Him.


Adonai said to Moses, “Come up to me on the mountain, and wait there . . . Then Moses went up the mountain and the cloud covered the mountain. —Exodus 24:12-15


My soul, wait in silence for God alone, because my hope comes from him.Psalm 62:5(6).


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[Expanded from a 2009 post about Feasting within the Fast; revised January 2015 and re-released 2022.]

Stilling the Waters: Feast Within The Fast

Fasting is for the spiritual adventurist, the soulish deep-sea diver . . . not the surface skater.


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Fasting is a matter of turning down the world’s noise and tuning into God. It’s not about a bunch of man-made, religious rules and regulations. It’s about love. Love for Him . . . and a desire to go deeper, press further and forsake other “stuff” for the opportunity to encounter Him in a hidden, holy place.


A place that is not tethered to this physical world with its distractions, clamoring demands and earthbound desires. A place where your soul’s senses—hearing, sight, feeling, smell, taste, spirituality—are sharpened and fine-tuned to God.


And when that occurs, you’ve entered into shift territory. Shifts in you, in others, in situations. It’s the stuff the whole Jacob’s ladder and heaven-and-earth connection is made of. In other words, fasting isn’t focused on what you’re not doing (not eating, not watching TV, not shopping or whatever else you’ve forfeited for a period), but on action.


That action begins with quieting your soul, climbing into the crevices of His Word to excavate new treasures, worshiping Him and journeying into deeper intercession. But it’s more than bunkering up in your “prayer closet” for the duration. In fact, it’s the rest of the story that apparently really attracts God’s attention and ignites change.




God lays down the parameters of what He considers a holy fast—and what doesn’t. Just look at Isaiah 58 . . .


You fast with contention and strife to strike viciously with your fist.
You cannot fast as you do today, hoping to make your voice heard on high.
Will the fast I choose be like this:
A day for a person to deny himself,
to bow his head like a reed and to spread out a sackcloth and ashes?


 The answer is a flat no. What God wants us to do is fast in a way that reflects His heart: break the chains of wickedness, set the oppressed free, tear off yokes, share with others, reach out to the poor and homeless . . . then watch as your soul’s menorah lights up the world around you and pleases your King.




1. justice—release those wrongly bound . . . even those who are bound-up in situations because of your prior actions, words, offenses .  . . or those who are bound up by the enemy and need the salvation message.


2. freedom—lift those from servitude, usury oppression and break every heavy yoke . . . even the yoke of false accusations and slander from your lips.


3. generosity—meet the needs of people in trouble and fulfill your duty to your community .  .  . even by feeding your neighbors or the poor, by clothing those who need it or by volunteering in an outreach to help others.


When you take passionate action during a part of your fast time to actualize the things that are tender to His heart, people are freed, saved, released, blessed, healed, fed, clothed, transformed.


And you? You’re catching the L-rd’s love showers.


Here’s His promise, per Isaiah 58, if you do His chosen fast . . .


1.  spiritual growth—your light will burst forth, your previous gloom/worries will be replaced with His joy, truth, understanding.


2. healing—newness will replace those old wounds (emotional, spiritual, physical) and your strength will be renewed.


3. well-guarded—His glory will follow you, guide you and satisfy your needs even in the desert . . . when you call, He will answer, “Here I am.”


4. spiritually nourished—your soul will be like a watered garden, a spring that never fails.


5. warrior-strong, retaking the land—your soul will be readied to rebuild those ruins in your life, repair broken walls, restore your life’s streets so you can stand on His foundations and journey on His path.




Going deeper with God through fasting helps you regain perspective and healing. That’s true in Judaic and messianic thought.


So you’re stepping into a holy fast? Sababa (cool)! Expect to evidence change, be changed, and encounter His Holiness. God, in His amazing kindness, lifts you up from the mundane, the tangible, and reveals words of wisdom or knowledge, helping you see within and without.


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[Expanded from a 2009 post of same title]

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